This afternoon I saw a friend whose first born I always referred to with the word "baby" in front of her name - that baby is now four. Drew had his 15th birthday a week ago. Time is forging ahead whether I am ready or not.
Sleep is not coming easily tonight. Not because of the periodic fireworks going on outside or the fact that I spent New Years Eve watching Pride and Predjuce again but because my vigilent mind won't let 2011 go.
Some of the thoughts replaying in my mind are...
I am counting on living to double my current age in order to enjoy and perfect the lessons I am still learning.
I am not where I thought I would be at this point in my life. I try not to judge that statement but just know that my life is different than what I thought it would look like.
I am, once again, sorting out and getting rid of stuff. Some stuff I look at and wish I'd never bought, some has outlived it original intented purpose and some is just used up. It is tiresome to be doing it again and so I am optimistic that I will be wiser.
I am examining ideas, concepts and beliefs I thought were at the core of who I am and didn't think I would ever question.
I am cognizant of the impact of others words and actions. I get teary eyed a lot more often which I usually blame on hormones but maybe I am just more sensitive.
I am not sure I want to write down my goals and resolutions for the new year. A frightening and freeing thought at the same time for a person who has always loved New Years Resolutions. Instead I think I will write down the words of William Arthur Ward.
Do more than belong: participate.
Do more than care: help.
Do more than believe: practice.
Do more than be fair: be kind.
Do more than forgive: forget.
Do more than dream: work.
